My thoughts are mostly about Education this morning. I ordered a book that was recommended in a column in Edutopia, and started reading the tablet sample, until it ran out (now I have to wait for the hard copy). Progressive education – I’m thinking back about my college readings, Dewey, Piaget, Vygotsky, and realize that after a few years of work in real schools, I lost my vision somehow, or, at least, my vision has become clouded by a lot of unimportant stuff. I do try to work in a child-centered classroom, but in reality, it’s still too teacher-centered. We are still giving too many tests (even though we call them formal assessments to make it sound better). There are still too many rigid structures for kids to feel free to be creative. We teachers feel watched, evaluated, but not supported by most of our administrators or by the local board of education. The parents support us more. At times I doubt whether I like my profession. I may make a difference in some kids’ life, but it feels temporary. Will my students become responsible citizens? Will they care about social justice? Or will they care only about their immediate neighbors and family? Will they become active participant in their local governments? Or will they feel powerless and become cynical? My colleagues and I feel powerless at times, and without a voice on what decisions are made in our school district – who gets hired, who sets the direction and how.
A gloomy day. It’s sunny and deceivingly bright outside – 27 degrees and gusty winds. I feel the cold and want spring. I need to stop thinking. I will delve in some of my school work now. Tomorrow is another day.