SOLSC 22/31 #sol15

My thoughts are mostly about Education this morning.  I ordered a book that was recommended in a column in Edutopia, and started reading the tablet sample, until it ran out (now I have to wait for the hard copy).  Progressive education – I’m thinking back about my college readings, Dewey, Piaget, Vygotsky, and realize that after a few years of work in real schools, I lost my vision somehow, or, at least, my vision has become clouded by a lot of unimportant stuff.  I do try to work in a child-centered classroom, but in reality, it’s still too teacher-centered.  We are still giving too many tests (even though we call them formal assessments to make it sound better).  There are still too many rigid structures for kids to feel free to be creative.  We teachers feel watched, evaluated, but not supported by most of our administrators or by the local board of education.  The parents support us more.  At times I doubt whether I like my profession.  I may make a difference in some kids’ life, but it feels temporary.  Will my students become responsible citizens?  Will they care about social justice? Or will they care only about their immediate neighbors and family?  Will they become active participant in their local governments? Or will they feel powerless and become cynical? My colleagues and I feel powerless at times, and without a voice on what decisions are made in our school district – who gets hired, who sets the direction and how.  

A gloomy day.  It’s sunny and deceivingly bright outside – 27 degrees and gusty winds. I feel the cold and want spring.  I need to stop thinking.  I will delve in some of my school work now. Tomorrow is another day.

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10 thoughts on “SOLSC 22/31 #sol15

  1. I remember feeling how you feel just 2 years ago. I changed careers, became a librarian & met my new principal. He introduced me to Dr Peters & Eric Thomas. I have found my mojo again. I hope you can find yours again!

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  2. OK, either a bit of “MIndset” or some poetry to get you back in the groove. Mary Howard’s Good to Great would also work. Chapter 1 is free (either Heinnemann or Stenhouse – I don’t always remember which one)!

    Figure out a short term goal to work towards. Kids have to enjoy learning in order to be life long learners. Passing tests are not the real work (that’s just all that politicians can think of!)

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  3. I can feel the longing for change through your post and I love how you speak of those most important things we want for our students. Never doubt for a single minute that you are making a difference!

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  4. Please know that you are not alone in your frustration. I feel nervous going to work every day (this is my 16th year teaching) because I know I’m not going to be able to do EVERYTHING that’s expected of me as an educator. I’ll never be enough for all my students. My lessons will never be perfect. I will fail to complete at least 5 things on my to-do list that someone “higher up” has deemed important. It’s hard getting up and going to work everyday, knowing that I will fail. One day at a time, and focus on what went right, instead of all the things that didn’t! At the end of the day, giving the best that we have to give is all anyone can ask. Good luck to you. I hope tomorrow is better.

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  5. From your post I get the impression that you truly care about your students. And even if you feel like you haven’t done enough, the love you give the students, and your concern for their lives, will stay with them, long after they graduate.

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